Living Without Regret

Its graduation time. Facebook and Instagram is plastered with happy faces in caps and gowns; proud parents are gushing about their incredible children. Everyone is celebrating their success, the friends they’ve made and the memories they’ll savour forever.

I was doing so well in my first year of university. I was studying Media and dreamt about a career in PR. I was so passionate about the course I was studying and in the first few months I was excelling in each of my modules. As the months went on I realised I couldn’t balance my health, work and studies so I sacrificed my studies and left during my second semester.

I tried education again a year later but I couldn’t get back into it, I didn’t enjoy the new university I was studying at and I was still struggling with my mental health. I convinced myself that I didn’t care for university and further education wasn’t for me. I told my friends and family that I didn’t want to get a degree because I didn’t care. I lied.

Unfortunately, despite my wishes it would be implausible for me to get a degree now. I’ve used up my tuition fee loan entitlement and can’t afford to pay my fees out of my own pocket. I realise the consequences of my mistakes now and though I couldn’t control my mental health or schedule my breakdowns I could’ve put off studying for a year or two until I’d got my shit together. Hindsight is a wonderful thing.

The oh so tumblr phrase “Never regret anything because at one time it was exactly what you wanted” really frustrates me. I’ve made millions of mistakes and have plenty of regrets. I’ve done stupid things that I (thought I) wanted at the time because I was angry, sad or being selfish; under any other circumstances I’d have never made those choices.

We shouldn’t let our past control our future but regrets are a good thing, they remind us of our conscience and our morals. We’ve all had temporary lapses in judgement and its okay, you learn from your mistakes. The real error is blaming the past for your future and neglecting to make any effort to improve.

As Sophia Amoruso says “There are secret opportunities hidden inside every failure” and without my past faults I’d have never created some of my favourite memories, like travelling around Europe, meeting most of my best friends and living in some amazing cities. As long as your regrets guide you in the right direction and don’t define your future everything will be okay.

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Travelling, Berlin


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Travelling, Rome


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Living in North Wales


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My angels ❤


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Travelling, Amsterdam


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Living in North Wales


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Travelling, Prague


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Travelling, Vienna


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Living in North Wales


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Travelling, Budapest


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Living in Glasgow


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Living in Stirling


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Travelling, Rome


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Travelling, Berlin


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Travelling, Rome


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Travelling, Rome

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Travel posts: Vienna | Prague | Rome | Berlin | Amsterdam

Life: Faux Anxiety | Boomerang Kids

Etc: Getting to know Amlwch | Scotland I love you

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