Drowning

**TRIGGER WARNING** This post is about my battle with depression & anxiety with the mention of suicide. I also talk about eating disorders, rape & abuse.

Self Destruct

Note: I started writing this post on the 14/01/2017 and stopped after the first paragraph. So many times I wanted to scrap it but instead I found myself adding more to it every time I found myself ready to hit the imaginary self destruct button. So this is really an accumulation of over a years …

Lessons from 2017

I didn't hold out much hope for 2017. After years of battling with mental illness all I wanted was to make it through the year alive. I wanted to make it through a full 365 days without any manic episodes or devastating lows and though, unfortunately, I didn't fulfil that goal the year was much kinder to …

Waiting for the other shoe to drop

Etymology: A phrase born in New York during the manufacturing boom of the late 19th to early 20th centuries. Apartments were built very similar in design with the bedrooms located above and underneath one another therefore it became common experience of tenants living in these buildings to hear a neighbour removing their shoes in the …

In Bruges

Me and my boyfriend both work in the service industry. He's a chef, I'm a waitress so after working the frantic festive period it only seemed right to treat ourselves and take a holiday.  We wanted to go somewhere with plenty of character, history and things to do but quaint and quiet so we could …

New Year’s Resolution

I remember reading somewhere about a traveller who had ventured to Norway to see the Northern Lights. They set up a tripod and camera then sat all night to be thoroughly disappointed by an achromatic sky. When they looked back over the photographs they realised that the incandescent, colourful sky was undoubtedly there, they just …

It’s the most wonderful time of the year…

The short days, the long insomniac nights and barely seeing any sunlight between shifts at work. Christmas time can be exhausting. I won't pretend I don't love the festive period, in fact I completely romanticise it. I love watching tacky Christmas movies in bed, singing awful Christmas songs after a few too many wines, fairy lights …

Reflection

Five months ago I wrote Boomerang Kids, a post about joining the generation of young adults who have returned to living with their parents after flying the nest years before. My parents semi-retired from Nottingham (where I'd grown up) to Anglesey. I was terrified. At the time I couldn't see myself outstaying my three month hiatus here but …

Falling in love with Budpest

Unlike my usual travel posts this one isn't going to go into too much detail. It's been three months since I came back from Budapest and though I did intend to write about it much sooner, I didn't. Budapest was the grand finale in our 2016 European adventure. After three days in Prague followed by three days …

Living Without Regret

Its graduation time. Facebook and Instagram is plastered with happy faces in caps and gowns; proud parents are gushing about their incredible children. Everyone is celebrating their success, the friends they've made and the memories they'll savour forever. I was doing so well in my first year of university. I was studying Media and dreamt about a …